Showing posts with label preparation. Show all posts
Showing posts with label preparation. Show all posts

Monday, 18 December 2017

The 18th

I will not die an unlived life,
I will not live in fear
of falling or catching fire.
I choose to inhabit my days,
to allow my living to open me,
to make me less afraid,
more accessible,
to loosen my heart
until it becomes a wing,
a torch, a promise…

Dawna Markova

What good is it that Christ was born in a stable in Bethlehem over 2,000 years ago if he is not also born in me? How is Christ to be born in me? You have only to be, like Mary, quiet, open-hearted and receptive to the Spirit at work within you. Say with her, “Here am I, the servant of the Lord; let it be with me according to your word.”

Br. David Vryhof

I pray that I can live a fearless life, because I know that I don't.
I pray to be receptive and open to the spirit, willing to follow It's lead. I pray I can do this without fear.
I'm a bit of a control freak so letting God take control is scary. I'm telling myself tjis week that it doesn't matter what I have and haven't done to prepare for Christmas; it'll happen either way and God will still be born amongst us.

Today I found joy in Star Wars, I was thankful for my parents and I felt hopeless about my preparations being on hold for the next 2 days whilst I'm in work

Friday, 1 December 2017

The 1st

It's that time of year again where I try to blog each day. I do this for Lent and Advent as it helps me to focus each day on the spiritual preparation that leads up to Easter and Christmas.

I had all sorts of ideas of what I might do for Advent but as the simplest idea is usually the most achievable I'm using Mary Fleeson's Advent prayers and the daily readings and meditations from The Northumbria Community, probably with a bit of Richard Rohr thrown in! Ok, that sounds more complicated than it is.

The prayer card suggests that each day you write down something that makes you joyful, something which you're thankful for and something which you feel helpless about. Whatever your belief system this is a useful way to evaluate and reflect upon your day.

I've been off work all this week to try and prepare myself (both physically by sorting out stuff at home, and mentally by finding some head space) for Advent. For the rest of the world Christmas has already begun, but in my tradition of the Anglican faith, and especially for myself as a priest, it's a time (like Lent) of spiritual preparation, patience, anticipation and waiting.

Four years ago on Advent Sunday I preached my first sermon, all about the anticipation of Advent. It's a difficult balance to find between wanting to celebrate - to immerse myself in the festivities around me - and to keep it as a time of preparation. Chronicling all this in the blog helps me to hold that tension and keep that balance.

Today: I found joy in laughing with my family at the cinema (Paddington 2 - pure distilled joy), I am thankful that I was able to take leave from work this week and I feel helpless about certain unstable world political situations.

Reflection:
Hurry is an unpleasant thing in itself, but also very unpleasant for whoever is around it. Some people came into my room and rushed in and rushed out and even when they were there they were not there – they were in the moment ahead or the moment behind. Some people who came in just for a moment were all there, completely in that moment.

Live from day to day, just from day to day. If you do so, you worry less and live more richly. If you let yourself be absorbed completely, if you surrender completely to the moments as they pass, you live more richly those moments.

Anne Morrow Lindbergh

Scripture:
The only thing that matters is faith expressing itself in love. — Galatians 5:6

Sunday, 4 December 2016

About-thinking

Sermon preached this morning at the main service. The gospel reading was Matthew 3:1-12, Old Testament Isaiah 11:1-10, New Testament Romans 15:4-13.

My friend, a fellow curate, messaged me the other day with the question “why hope?” She wasn’t just having a really bad day, it turns out her church for Advent has a sermon series themed around hope and she was doing some sermon prep.

It did get me thinking though, how to respond to her question, especially as I’d just read this morning’s gospel whilst beginning to prepare my own sermon. John the Baptist’s confrontational manner has a tendency towards sounding terrifying rather than  hopeful. This is a really challenging section of the gospel.

The good news is John isn’t addressing his comments to you and I, but to the Pharisees and Sadducees who’ve turned up to get their holy insurance policy. They’re probably going to be ok with God, they’re descended from Abraham after all, but just in case they’ve popped out to see John to get themselves baptised…you never know if it might be needed.

John’s a big deal at this point, people don’t usually just nip out into the wilderness but he’s drawing big crowds and his teaching is pretty popular, hence the religious big-wigs thinking they’d better check it out too.

Now, in context he’s talking to these folk, the “brood of vipers” as he calls them, which are harsh words, but that’s not to say that there isn’t something we can take and apply to ourselves- and the really good news is that it’s full of hope.

John the baptiser is the voice crying out in the wilderness, the one preparing the way for Jesus. As we know Advent is our time of preparation for Jesus, but we tend to go about things in a very different way to John.

I think for us as Christians in our society Advent has become quite a dichotomy; that pull or tension between knowing we should be spiritually preparing and the wish to join everyone else who’s already celebrating. I got grumbles at work last week for asking the girls to wait until December to put the Christmas music on.

In terms of the cycle of the church year Advent mirrors Lent as a time for prayer and penitence, but unlike in Lent it’s much harder to keep that spiritual focus. It’s impossible to not celebrate Christmas until Christmas.

More widely Advent, rather than a time of journeying towards something, has become a fun-filled time of arrival. The party season. A time for memory-making. People want to celebrate Christmas because it’s joyful, colourful, full of light and that all-important hope. It’s a time of escapism and putting off thinking about the serious stuff.

Yet by his stark and uncompromising message John lets us know that what’s coming demands a response from us, requires thought and preparation on our part. John is proclaiming the nearness of God’s reign, there’s an urgency to it, hence the big scary metaphors the listener can’t ignore. John’s telling us this is serious stuff, and something we need to set aside time for.

As well as thinking about, it requires “about-thinking”, which is another way to understand “repent”. The centuries have not been kind to this word but what it amounts to is a change in our thinking, a reversal or turning around. In this case a turning around to contemplate what our baptism means.

Most of us won’t remember our own baptism, but we will remember our confirmation where we’re asked to reaffirm our baptism. Baptism, for us, for the family of the children I’ll baptise today, is a response to God’s love- a desire and commitment to respond to God’s call; remembering that we are loved by God, are part of a wider community and have a place with God’s people.”

John is telling his listeners that the baptism he offers isn’t a holy insurance policy. More is required of them and of us. In the letter to the Romans Paul explores the idea that it’s our baptism that unites us with Jesus, and therefore to each other. It’s not about us as individuals, not about individual salvation, but a great communal joining that links each baptised person to each other, entwined in the love of the Trinity. That gives us a responsibility to and for each other.

This definitely requires a response on our part as we’re not always great at being one connected community of faith, hope and love. Both Isaiah and Paul offer us visions in today’s readings of what a community reflecting that connectedness might look like. For Isaiah, it’s a return to Eden; for Paul, all Christians living in harmony.

For John, it’s an about-turn, turning to examine ourselves, our identity as the baptised and our communal life. He wants us to think about our response to God’s coming action in the world. What John doesn’t know is what that action will be, that Jesus doesn’t reveal God’s power through apocalypse but through love, remarkable preaching, parables of forgiveness and growth, deeds of compassion and healing.

What’s our response or repentance to God’s love revealed through Jesus?

Advent is a journey we undertake to get in touch with God and ourselves, and yet it can heighten our sense of responsibility to each other. It gives space for the purification of the heart and a place for a new start. “Advent promises us fresh possibilities, opens up new horizons and invites us into a world that offers a better way of living.” That’s our repentance, or turn around in our thinking.

To return to my friend’s question of hope, St Paul writes that "by the encouragement of the scriptures we might have hope" (Ron 15:4), yet not all of scripture is an easy read.

John the Baptist reminds us that our gospel disturbs and disrupts, as it ought to. Ours is not a religion of comfort and cosiness. It’s a challenge. We must face ourselves, who we are in our baptism and bring it all before God. God knows it already and loves us, but the depth of relationship he wants from us requires us to be honest about who we are.
The purpose of this disruption is to renew, refresh and replenish - both ourselves, our communal lives and our relationship with God.

My response to “why hope?” was as follows: we hope because of all those small things in our lives that bring us joy and glimpses of the divine even on the darkest of days, we hope because we love, we hope because we know we’re not alone.

This is the hope reflected in our baptism, and what we encounter through our Advent. God and God’s love reflected in all things, in the light and the shade, in the noise and the quiet, in peace and in disruption.

Thursday, 12 December 2013

He has delivered me out of all my trouble

It was my last night at college for 3 weeks tonight and I think I'll be grateful for the break! My assignment is pretty much done, and I'm tired. My Advent meltdown still hasn't arrived, but it's looming- starting the feel the pressure of needing to write cards, tidy the house, put up decorations and make Christmas treats.
I need to keep focused on the fact of Christmas not being about those things, but that's easier said than done.

Sunday, 1 December 2013

And With Fear And Trembling Stand

Well I threatened to blog all through Advent so here goes...
Today was a day of new beginnings in so many ways- the first day of December, the first day of Advent and a new year in the church calendar. It was also my first proper sermon, and I was terrified!
Luckily rescue remedy and lots of friendly faces peering back at me meant I got through it and people said very kind and lovely things afterwards.
But...after so much time preparing for the first day of Advent- I was leading Family Praise too this afternoon- how do I now get myself spiritually prepared for Christmas? I have my first assignment due in on the 18th, intercessions to write for the 15th, the children’s social events and one or two of my own. What time is there- with study, work and family- to get myself spiritually ready to receive Jesus? Today's gospel reading from Matthew reminded us that we must always be ready, and actually Jesus loves us just as we are, which in the circumstances is a good thing!